JeSsRoCkeD

When I was still in kinder, I already had my first crush. I forgot her name since it was way back in time, anyways, to shorten it up, it was late afternoon, she was running with her friends playing “touch something”, then I walked towards her and went beside her and kissed her cheeks, which meant that I like her. Right after I kissed her, she ran away going to our teacher, crying out loud. My heart was torn into pieces; my first reject. ( Just kidding lols, I was still a kiddo, what dyou expect =P )
After an unpleasant experience during the kinder era, I leveled up to elementary or grade school. When I was grade two, I had another crush, her name was “secret”, she was so pretty in her school uniform, I even wrote her a letter, written in invisible ink, and I sent it through air by blowing it from my palm. She did not receive it because I did not tell her to receive it (LOL). Anyways, as days have passed by, I noticed that she likes, girls as well. And there it goes, my fragile heart broke again.
However, during my grade four, I had a Mutual Understanding ( MU ) with a new crush. Her name was “Marivick” Edit: “its actually Marivin”, she always carry her unusual laugh (like a witch). I was then so happy, we had that understanding on the 4th quarter of the semester, and I was planning to tell her how I feel the next school year. I was so excited for the classes to resume, until i found out that, she transfered to another school, and what’s worst is that, she moved to somewhere outside the city. Then cracks and shattering sounds were the only things that I have heard, until I noticed it was my heart.
On the sixth grade, I found my another crush, her name was “Sherm bla bla bla”. She had a curly hair and cute eyes, I really must like her, but she hates me and she likes someone else named “CM”, and she even had his name written on her hands using blades, such an obsession. Until I finally lost my hope of getting her. It was not so painful this time.
Graduation and first day in high school. What a remarkable and unforgettable event in my or our lives rather. I have not really got myself a girl, but I had another crush on someone, she is now the girl of my friend, not to mention her name.

Edit: They broke up because of me, but she was too late because I got over her just like when you lost your appetite. And now, she’s turned into a !!%&^@

However, we may not consider my kinder and grade school romance as a serious affair. Like how the song goes, “Yesterday’s feelings”(the used), those feelings will only lost in time though it was really unforgettable.
And yeah, forth year high school, the best period of our high school days. We learned to value friendship and of course learned to love.
This is how the story goes:
It was late in the afternoon, classes are almost finished though we did not have a class during that time, considered to be dismissed, and by the way, her name was “J”; I finally had come to the point to express how I feel, not to mention how I started to fall for her, It would be a very long story.  Anyways, I was getting myself prepared for the grand event of my life, I brought Kevin with me to help me fix my hair and other necessary things to fix, we were at the “mirror place”. Then, when I was all packed up, ready to go I was. I looked for her, luckily found her immediately, but I noticed that, “P” and “J” and “K” was having a discussion or whatever you call it. In slow motion, like in the movies, I walked towards them with a smile, and I suddenly figured out that “P” was bringing them both together again, so then I passed through them with an emotionless face and found a problem, trying to solve the puzzle of my heart, trying to put back together all its broken pieces. I looked down and saw a droplet fell off the ground, I noticed that it came from me.

August 23,2007 - Update
I am Jessrocked as you can see, lol. I have a brand new crush, I feel like courting her. But can this be a sequel of my tragic romance? I might get rejected, AGAIN. She is gorgeous and talented, popular and a freshmen, and I dont know her very much, with regards to her personality and attitude. I never wanted to become a pessimist, but when it comes to these kind of things, I falter. I need an advice. :X

August 26, 2007 (11:52pm) Update XD *maybe off-topic*  hehe

(While listening to Balisong - Rivermaya)

I really dont know why I cant let go of this song, probably because I can relate like every most of us. Every time I spend a solitary moment with myself, it turns into an emotional moment, and then turns into a fantasizing moment. However, with regards to my previews update, I think it will fall off onto a void of nothing. Its not being negative, but its how I predict it will be, because I am evidently unattractive. Thus, when you’re physically unattractive, in a society that demands perfection, your sense of right or wrong, fair and unfair, will always be tragically skewed (I’ve been thinkin where I got those words). I kept thinking how my emptiness inside have gotten this far. I am pathetic, I know, but it’s really just me. I keep bragging and whining for some reason. That’s just how it is. Sensible aye? Don’t look at me like that, its already 12:26am, my lunacy just turned off a few seconds ago. So please ignore me..
June 18, 2008: NOTICE THE EDIT ABOVE!!!—Note: THIS ONE DOES NOT BELONG HERE —
So, today, I met hot chicks, yeah hot chicks. Some are brown chicks, some were White Chicks, some were Round Chicks, Chinita Chicks, and some were Sexy Chicks. This aint a song, seriously, I saw them today in school. They’re also in my friends list.. =D
Yeah, I wish I can grab em all..haha
Okay, theres this one chick, (the sexy chick).. We were going down the stairs, she went down first. I was right after, looking down on her, lookin at her nice bumper, yeah, white bumper =D
(I mean we, me and my friend named Ryann Palado, the Saint of Perverts)
and it was such a blessing that we came from the 4th floor, so it felt like forever paradise. haha

UPDATE: October 13,2008 | STORY OF THE YEAR

Ok, (as of this moment, i read her bulletin, she said she’s not ready, so ill wait or forget) Ill continue this sequel some other time hehehe… T_T